Connie

I've changed, and I'm only human. I'll sit here with coffee from Starbucks whilst you blunder your way through reality.

Bye.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Hermitted.

Oh em gee, I miss school ironically, lol!

Three papers down and one more to go :D
& I've a 'break' tomorrow to study for bitchy literature.

HOT EYECANDY. (Oh em gee)

SEAN O'PRY





Gonna hyperventilate and die.
Goodbye. (dies)

Quote from Sheryl: I'm gonna get lung cancer from smoking too many exams.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Equation.

Insecurities + Connie = Endless misery.

Friday, June 26, 2009

Stress.



You love to test,
my buttons you press,
stress, stress, stress!

I hate its very taste,
but yet you shove it in my face.
I scream, scream, and scream,
but you don't care, it seems.

I CAN'T DO NO BULLSHIT MATHS.
(F)

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Find me a hole to hide.



Hello Bimbo

Photoshoot today was kinda fun, and I found out I was prank called before and I didn't even know.
Aish, I dunno where to hide my face.
Wlllllll, I sounded so dumb.

Like D-U-M-B ._.
They're never gonna let me live this down I swear.

Celebrated Jagdish, Aman, and Alphonsus' birthdays with a wobbly cake. The cake jiggles la omg, reminds me of my fats. Teehee :D

T08 gathering tomorrow with the girls and guys :D Phooey, I dunno what to prepare. I wanna eat top shell. (omg, yum)

I'm not making sense.

Submission.



He said that He would hear
His promise has been made
He'd answer loud and clear, yeah
If only we would pray

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Frustrated
Frustrated
Frustrated
Frustrated
Frustrated
Frustrated
Frustrated
Frustrated
Frustrated
Frustrated
Frustrated
Frustrated
Frustrated
FML ):

Omg bitch, I hate you.

Happy?



No worries, no hurt
pure and instant bliss

No pain, no tears
a smile on a face

No arguing, no violence
peace and tranquility

No frown, no worry
everything in its right place

Oh em gee.

I got a new notebook cum planner! :D
Yeah whatever.

I almost died doing cam 2 cause Pastor Pacer scooted here and there without warning.
Got dizzy just by looking at the camera swing left and right.
& I was the sole surviving camera in the vicinity (not including cam 3)cause they brought cam 1 and cam 5 over to Woodlands.
Oh em gee, you know what? For Light the Way, they're gonna use those huge cameras you see in concerts that zooms here and there on a beam!

I WANNA TRY CONTROLLING THAT! (Oh em gee)

Anyway, TIC TAC (Tech) TOE starts next week. I played a part in coming up with the name! :D Joel said Tic, Emerald said Tac and I said Toe! Muahaha, cool right! I don't really know if I can commit for every Sunday from 4 to 5pm :\ I guess I could.

& apparently Shaun and Pat said I was a 70 year old trapped in a 17 year old's body. Tchhh, all I did was have rice with beansprouts and clams (lala) for lunch. They said that's what old people would eat. I didn't really believe them though, until when we were leaving I turned around and saw this old man eating porridge with clams and beansprouts ._.

The irony.

Emo part! (Don't read it if you can't stand emo posts)

Part of me wants to not care, and the other part keeps on nagging that I've got to do something. I feel so tired of constantly caring, and yet I know that if I don't, the consequences will be 'disasterous'. I pray that God'll change ___'s heart, and let ___ see the light. Meanwhile all we can do is wait, and let ___ learn the hard way right?

People have been telling me that I can do nothing and it's up to ___, that ___ chose the difficult path, and has to learn on ___ own. I don't want ___ to go through that route, I don't want to see ___ hurt.

It's phreaking frustrating.
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Goodbye.

Grace amazing takes me home
I trust in You.

Friday, June 19, 2009

I wish.

I wish I am as skinny as SHINee.

Diet diet diet, gah.
Wa shannie bananaie, you good.
I do all the dirty work right.

.....

Something significant.

Faith is exactly what it takes to get through uncertainty.

Faith is not necessary when you know how things are going to work out, - that's knowledge. It's in the time of unknowing that having faith is what sees you through to the other side. Faith is what gives you strength. Faith is that light in your heart that keeps on shining even when it's all darkness outside.


I've always heard about such minute and basic things being taught about, but it's what that keeps me going.
Faith really brings about miracles, I can vouch for that :)

Goodnight.

Another miracle.

Studying at Serene's house is really comfy especially her sofa.
It's not my fault that I dose off occasionally manz.

Anyway, thank God! (muacks)
I got into camp committee for speedlight camp :)
Another miracle from Him, awesome or whattttt.

Thank you very muchie.

Watching Another Cinderella Story makes me so envious of people who can dance. I wanna learn how to dance too! Don't laugh please.
Oh btw, I love the cameras used in the show, I LOVE the bright colours, the clarity etc.

Study wuddy duddy tomorrow with peep-poles.

Happy happy kiddo :D

A man reaps what he sows

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

And all the animals poop.



B&J after like a million years.

I'mma happy kid :)
& Family Outing's making me crack up into a kazillion pieces.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009



I’m on the wrong side of a parallel universe
Am I alive or just dead

MIA

Boo, I've been such a recluse for the past few days D:

Zoo tomorrow, I'm like gonna study there while my sibilings enjoy themselves.
Maybe the monkeys can test me on Geography and Econs, and they can help me press the calculator for Maths.

Oopsie daisy, I need to purchase more contact lenses.

My sister just painfully reminded me that I'm a tad too anti-social. It's just too bad I don't have her sociable character.

Milk teehee pleaseeeeee, hohoho.

I'm a boring person, good bye.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

I need study buddies.

Praise you in the storm.

Weather veli de warm ah.

My pimple hurts, and it looks like a mosquito bite, lolllll.
Geography is exhausting and boring, on the bright side, thank God I finished plate tectonics, volcanoes and earthquakes. At least it's like 20% completed? Hahahaha.

Testimonial match tomorrow, and I don't really relish the idea of playing against the seniors :\ Playing on Friday against the J1s and DSA candidates was already bad enough with me missing the ball a few times :\

Gah.

I thank God for church and cell, where there are people whom I can share my troubles with and don't judge me for my problems.

What Pastor Pacer said struck me today: True identity comes from believing and having faith in Christ.
We will never find our identity if we don't turn to Christ and put Him above all.
I think that's what's happening to me, where my life is like in bits and pieces now. I haven't been putting God into perspective and I haven't been turning to Him, I have been depending on myself ever since the year started. Perhaps that's why I'm so exhausted of being someone I'm not, that I thought I've found who I am, but I have not.

Who we really are, is found when we face trials and tribulations and how we tackle it.
I guess I'm still in the process of finding myself in Christ, and I need Him to straighten out my life cause I can't do it on my own.

Lollll, I think JC life is a test of faith somehow, and I'm determined to pass it with flying colours.

(The stupid computer's lagging T.T)


The ultimates '06

Hi, I miss the old cell, lollll.
I used to be thin dammit T.T

Oh, and fyi, I'm not anorexic. I eat like a cow, I just complain a lot about needing to lose weight, but have never gotten around to do it, lol.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Amused.

Quickie.

I'm utterly sure that I'm a tad doomed when it comes to my revision.
& my room is like a garbage pit seriously with my notes strewn about on the floor.
A rather picturesque depiction ain't it?

HAH, omg I realised I used cheem words in the past three lines.

Good day.

Friday, June 12, 2009

STUPID.

Remind me again why I hate boys aged between 13-15.
Oh now I remember, cause they're mini assholes who gets on my nerves cause they're freaking annoying.

Let's see, one example is my stupid brother.
My mum asked me how was soccer training, and I was like I need to learn how to play soccer properly to get into team.

Guess what my assholic brother said?

Serves you right la, who ask you pontang training.

Eh BROTHER, you're such a f*ker siol. I know you're like in your VOLLEYBALL TEAM, don't need to SHOW OFF. I did not pon training fyi, I didn't go for Wednesday's one cause my stupid eye was freaking swollen and I can't see a bloody thing you arse.

Omg, why do I bother explaining myself to you, you moronic shithead.

OMG, brothers should be kicked and slapped.

Goodbye, am postively pissed now.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Jailbait.

I know you people are gonna stone me for this post, cause I've been ranting non-stop about guys, heh.

Nevertheless,

LEE TAEMIN :D







Argh, I swear he's like my jailbait, he's freaking cute.
And I'm a nuna ): Nehmind, he can be my brother, cause he's like freaking freaking cute!
& his dance moves are kewlzzzzzzzzz!
I wish they'll come to Singapore, I'll just FAINT.

Anyway, I feel like a loser I just started studying and it's not progressing plus I'm stuffing myself with so much carbs that I bet I've gained like a few kg ):

& Jong Hoon looks so much like Tiffany that it's freaking freaky and annoying.

TSK, me want skinny legs.
Goodbye.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

With love and strength for each new day.

I want legs as skinny as SHINee's! ):

Life's so unfair, I've really fat thighs. (cries)

Anyway, I hope Mei Chan's Butler comes with with like some SP cause I'm itching to watch it again! Gahhh, Mizushima Hiro is like hot. Damn, I wish I had a butler T.T


Mizushima Hiro

Damn I should be studying but I'm not :\
I so need to find the motivation to study really hard manz.
Omg, and ever since Hazel posted up the photos of SHINee's dorm, I keep thinking about SHINee cause they're so so so freaking cute. What's wrong with them? How can anyone be so cute huh! Plus they've skinny legs and nice cheekbones ): LIFE'S UNFAIR LA DEY ):

I'm so sorry Hazel for not updating the blog :\
A thousand and one apologies, I will soon ok I promise!

I hate running yet I need to start running, tsk.
Kris Allen's No Boundaries is super inspiring, lollll.

God'll make a way when there seems to be no way

Monday, June 8, 2009

Dance subaru.

Met up with Hazel, Joanne, Brenda and Victoria for lunch, and I miss them laaaaaa. Went to cineleisure's cathay to catch Dance Subaru with Joanne and Victoria.

DANCE SUBARU IS FREAKING AWESOME, LIKE FREAKING TOUCHING!

I give it 5 STARS!

Omg, everyone gotta watch it. It's really good manz, I cried at the first part D: & I'm not being biased just because they play Eat You Up and Bolero in the show, or the fact that Dbsk made an appearance inside. Oh btw, I screamed like a toot when they appeared, and hit Victoria for full five minutes before resuming to my 'muted' squeals.

HAZEL, I WILL WATCH IT WITH YOU A SECOND TIME.
Lollllll.



Subaru and her twin brother Kazuma share a dream in becoming ballet dancers, but their passion is discouraged by their father. After Kazuma's death from a hereditary illness, dancing became Subaru's only happiness and she yearns to lose herself in dance. Her life takes a dramatic turn when she runs into cabaret owner Isuzu, who recognizes the talent in Subaru and trains her in her nightspot.

But to become a professional ballerina, Subaru has to overcome harsher challenges than merely satisfying the cabaret drunkards. Spurred on by her rivaling dance companions, Subaru enters an international dance competition, to vie for recognition and a scholarship to any top ballet company in the world.

Subaru and her companions soon discover that there are more to compete than the championship, and tests of friendship, betrayal and self-worth come one after another. Gradually the youngsters learn about themselves as dancers, as persons and as friends.
Okay, Joanne's addicted to Mei Chan's butler, and I miss seeing Rihito cause he has really prominent cheekbones. (swoons)

Goodbye, I just ate a thousand and one slices of salmon.
MUAHAHAHAH!


Sunday, June 7, 2009

I'm not cheerful, I just smile a lot.

I slept for thirteen hours straight :D
I wanted t die yesterday cause I didn't sleep the night before, and Shan Ying has flown off to Japan ): Ah you lucky kid! Come back soon k! And go to Daiso! :D

I've been watching this new Japanese drama which I think is pretty fun.
Plus the guys are kinda cute with their oh so prominent cheekbones, major plus point! Teeheehee.
Plus everyone should totally watch Boys over Flowers, if not on channel U, watch it on Youtube or mysoju.


Boys over Flowers.
(HYUNJOONG & KIM BUM!)
By the way, SS501's coming in December to Singapore!
OMG, I SHOULD START SAVING NOW!


Mei Chan's Butler.
(Can't remember all their names, they're really really long)

I'm craving for bbt again T.T
I should stop my daily drinking of bbt really :\

Off to watch my show! I mean, off to study.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

I'm lepaking in front of my laptop, eating ice cream and this weird tanghoon thingammy that has crab, lots of garlic, chang, lots of ginger in it, like it's the most normal thing to do at 12:55 am.

SHIT LA.

It's like the tanghoon isn't that appealing cause of the ginger and chang, but I just want to eat it. I think my life's like that now, the things I aren't exactly what's the best and yet I'm still doing it. It's because things are a challenge, knowing that I may never get what I want, but still wanting to continue pursuing it cause I'm refusing to let reality take hold.

& I think I've an eating disorder. I'm like bingeing till my stomach hurts, and till I'm on the verge of puking. After that, I'll feel immensely guilty and start to swim like 50 laps at a time. I think i'm builemic or something :\

I hate myself :\

Friday, June 5, 2009

Take a bow.


Nerd of the millenium.
I'm so freaking smart baby.

So how's life?

I've been stuffing myself with chips and maggi mee for the past week, cool or what siol.
I wanna have lots and lots and lots of trainings! I feel empty without rigorous trainings, lollll. Soccer was kewl, though at one point I almost twisted my right ankle yet again while using my leg to reach out for the ball. I was super afraid cause I twisted my ankle twice already, and it rendered me useless cause I couldn't walk or run properly :\

Anne Marie and Munirah are our captain and vice captain, congrats la dey :D
Plus Diva la Futbol is tomorrow, which means that I can't go for LTC workshop or briefing :\ Somehow, I'm regretting that I'm not gonna attend the LTC thingammy tomorrow, shizzzzz.

I swear I'm melting from watching SHINee dance to Juilette. I love it that they're freaking flexible, and that they can sing and dance so so well live. (swoons) I LOVE KEY! How many times am I gonna say that manz. Maybe like a million kazillion times? Teeheehee, love his super prominent cheekbones. Oh so hot laaaa.

& Pre U seminar peep-poles are back! :D
Kewlz shizzzzzz, but I think the next time I get to meet them will be what? When school reopens? Zzzzz, ah well.
Plus this may seem slow, but omgxzxzxzx! I'm in House Comm like officially, and I feel damn excited luh.

HAHAHAHA, I'm being stupid.
Whatever, shall do stuff now.

(Burps)

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Out of my mind.

A really random feeling: I miss canoeing.
And I swear I'll marry the person who understands my weird food intake at really weird timings.

BAH.
Will I die if I hold my poop and not go to toilet?

Cause I'm doing that right now.
Coffee and apples make poop fiesta.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Tell me what do you do when it all falls apart.

I swam today, and I realize Singaporeans are quite a dense bunch.

Swimming pools have vertical markings on the pool floors for a reason, which is to show people that you have to swim the length of the pool.
But nooooooo, smart Singaporeans swim the breadth of the freaking pool.
Use your brains you tooters.
I mean it's fine to swim the breadth if there's not a lot of people, but the pool was freaking packed, plus I WAS SWIMMING THE LENGTH BODOH!
At least four times there was this guy who suddenly appeared out of nowhere in my path, and I had to brake and stand up before I crashed into him.

Not only that, I've come to loathe huge groups of children especially the boys.
Basket, they play in the pool never mind, they just don't have eyes I reckon. Must be cause their goggles are so fogged up that light can't penetrate through that they like to keep expanding their circle and forget that there are people swimming.
Guess what? I didn't realize that there was this boy beside me, and I accidentally kicked him.
And I stood up to apologise, and he had the audacity to scream "OW!" and gives me a death glare. Big deal fatso, I'm not afraid of you and your flab. I thought I kicked a whooping cushion you ass.

(Rolls eyes)

Homework sucks :\
I wanna pon school tomorrow, it's so tempting.
Plus I think classes during the hols are a waste of time really, I don't concentrate at all.

I wish I could work in Korea now, I so wanna revamp some of the MVs. Some look so cheapo and the image consultants are prolly going from bad to worse :\
Watching the making of Juilette makes me wanna cry cause I miss Key so much ): I miss SHINee and their cuteness. I wish they would come to Singapore like this year or something.

(I hate it when people put retarded words on pictures I wanna use)


Key.
Hello, my boyfriend.
Me love him deep deep k :D

Monday, June 1, 2009

Ft Island. (swoons)

OMG, GP PAPER IS LIKE IN A FEW HOURS.
What the toot ._.

I feel so unprepared and I'm not done reading the thematic readings plus I haven't read up on how t do AQ.
All I can do now is pray really hard that God won't hamtam me cause I haven't put in my share of effort.

I've got this sudden urge to just sleep on the unfinished work, hoo boy.
Lucky people get to go for Pre-U Seminar and escape a week of extra lessons, lollll.

Am so sorry my posts are getting from worse to worst, maybe that expalins the lack of tags D:

I really wanna see what Jong Hoon looks like, but am too lazy to go and stalk Ft Island when they come to Singapore. Then again, it would be cool if I could take a photo with him but it makes me seem so desperate when stalking. Then again, I AM DESPERATE.

FARGH, someone give me a hundred bucks so I can go and see Ft Island proper.
OMG JONG HOON ): Plus I wanna see HongKi! Maybe I should really go and stalk with Hazel and Joanne eh?

(I swear one more time I see an artiste imitate Lee Minho's hairstyle I will go on a screaming rampage and smack all the image consultants)


Hong Ki.
I wanna see his HK condition, zomg.


Jong Hoon.
He's like the cutest geek and guitarist ever.
(swoons)

I need to study now T.T