D-1

I'm pretty excited for school to start, to see everyone again.

(Speechless)

I need a proper eyecandy.

10 things

1. I bought a new Dickies bag.
2. I'm itching to watch Skins.
3. I want to stare at Freedie Mclair aka Luke Pasqualino.
4. Green tea java chip and cappucino please.
5. I want to get a pair of Nike dunks.
6. I feel super depressed and don't feel like getting out of the house tomorrow because I feel extremely fat and ugly.
7. I want a pretty purse.
8. I haven't bitten my nails for two days.
9. I have to run.
10. I want to skip to the part after A levels.

Goodnight

Hello beautiful people, my tumblr's changed to CLICK

I wanted that to be my blog name, but it was unavailable ):

In love

I'm quite glued to Skins, kinda sorta maybe.

(This picture links with my header)
I want a boyfriend who reads Shakespeare at that breakfast table.

And if Effy doesn't want him, I'll have him.

Crying makes me tired, just go away.

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I'm growing up

Hello, I kinda like my new url.

Bullz

Result: Fail.

I want a boyf like Luke Pasqualino, he's so yummy.

Things to smile about:

1. Left 3 more math papers to complete. (not counting those that I left blank)
2. Finished GP.
3. Am halfway through Tess.

Things to brood about:

1. Mum not letting me stay out later even after talking.
2. Not completing my assignments
3. Not studying yet.
4. Me still being fat
5. Not enough money, I need to shop for back to school essentials.

Am gonna do geog in a few minutes, goodbye.

I really pray that they'll understand.

Skins

New resolution: Watch Skins.

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

I feel happy for being such a thorn in your flesh, it makes me giggle with glee.

Good night.
Btw, GP is half done.

MJ died of homicide or cardiac arrest uh?

Quiet

I swear if I don't get to hear myself think, I will scream and kill someone.

I don't get how parents have to get all angry and start shouting at the top of their voices. It gets me so irate because I'm trying to do my work here.
It's so ironic that they can do that and we can't, because when we scream, we get slapped or scolded for creating such a ruckus.

I need to think in peace.
I should just escape to the toilet to do my work, good stuff.

I feel the world closing up on me.

Shit.

I am 18, I'm in J2, and I'm taking As in like 10 months?
I'm freaking out.

Do

Homework

Now

Math is such a bitch.
Econs is such a mega bitch.

Maksim

Maksim is like undescribable.

It's just the dance hall drug

I'm afraid my mood will swing terribly this year.
I don't want to cry suddenly for no reason.

I promise I'll be friendlier, I will smile more, I will talk more, I will say hi to people along the corridor, I will make friends with strangers, I will not be so shy, I will study, I will be happier.

Twilight

Won't it be awesome if you had your own library, with a ceiling so high and bookcases so huge that you need a slidable ladder to get about. Not only that, you'll have armchairs that are so soft and large that you can curl up while drinking starbucks and reading an awesome book.

Or the fact that you could just sit at a roadside cafe, with a drink and just watch the world go by.

What about having a theatre to yourself, whereby you're the only one watching what's being performed.

I wish I can lose myself in a world that doesn't exist, to be someone else for a day, to hear my own thoughts, to smile at the beauty of the world.

I guess everyone needs a kind of escape somehow, from this taxing world into someplace that we can hide away in.

I'm feeling like a damn shitty toothead cause I can feel my fats jiggling like no more.

Yes, I have apparently no control over what I put in my mouth and this has caused me to put on like 2 kg, holy shiz.

I'm so gonna sew my mouth shut and not eat a single morsel for the rest of my life. Damn you fat thighs and my absent determination.

I swear am gonna survive on either fruits alone or coffee for an entire week. I don't care, I got to have slim thighs and lose 5 kg, if not I'll just fall into depression and not get out of the house.

Stupid, I'm not doing my homework or studying.
I will not fail, I will ace the damn A levels even if it means not sleeping for nights and being as irritatable as a twit.

Good night.

I WILL STARVE MYSELF.